WHAT COMES TO MY MIND

wow i just realized it's been a long time. before i realized it, it's march 09! living day to to day with out a mission and a purpose makes u feel life is boring and empty. i tend to find myfelf fall into the devil's trap very easily. i always ask myself WHY?!??!???! don't u love god? don't u care and love people? don't want to see what god can do in ur life? my answers has always been yes but... god is not listening, he's not into me, i am not holy.... blah blah blah... day by day i fall into my own trap. i felt like a kid that did someting wrong and feels shameful to go home, and see my parents, i started telling myself they don't want me anymore.
but just recently with this past 2 months, i ran into momo randomly once at the bank, once at the mall, and once driving by her to me it was just a coinstance. until one day i recieved a hand written letter from momo saying shes been praying for me. she feels like the frst two time we ran into eachother at the bank and mall must means something so she told god that if she sees me one more time then it's time for me to come back to god. then days passes by she feels like she couldn't wait any longer so decided to give me a call to meet her up she had someting to tell me. so we met up in a restruaunt and she told me the story. then i asked her didn't u see me drive by u? and she was schocked, she said i wasn't sure that day if it was u or not, but i did see a car like urs drive by me. i decided to call u anyways because i just didn't want to wait for the third time anymore. but now she realized we did already meet 3 times in god's planing. she was so happy that answered her prayer, then she looked at me and said it's time to come back, god loves you very much he didn't give up on u and hes trying so hard to have you back. then i felt this loving kindness pouring into my heart. aftewards when i was on my own i forgot about everything again. i was back to my empty shell wondering around soulless.
just this past week, on thursday i woke up the bones in my neck was out of place, my neck was cricked i couldn't trun my head or lift my left hand. i thought it was a stiff neck from sleeping so i went to work anyways. but by the afternoon it was in severe pain so i left and went home. then that night momo and enoch prayed for me it was a bit better. so i took off work for 2 days, momo said i should go to church. i kind of hesitated at first but i went with her anyways. when i walked in and saw jack and annie prayed for me tears were falling like rapids. it felt like home, i was back to my guardians my spiritual parents. then on sunday i joined my brothers and sisters at suday service it was such a blessing. i realized i need to build a new foundation with god.
so now that i decided to leave the wilderness i'm looking back at how did i get there and how do i help others to get out. i realized a couple things i don't read the bible, and i don't pray. well that's the two basic things to do if u want to know god more and start a relationship with him. we need to spent atleat an hour everyday with god, u can't just do 15mins or 10mins it takes about that long for your mind to settle down and focus on god. praying to him its like couseling. except he's the best couselor ever, that has answers to everything and his ears are all your for free. so if u know there's a couselor like that out there wouldn't you wanna be the first one to show up and make an appointment whenever u can? and tell him every thing that's been bugging you and your worries?
recently i read in a book that god has at least 70,000 promises in the bible for us so if we don't read it how do we claim it? how are we gonna know what those things are? the bible was written for us, a love letter personaly from god. if we ignore it we're not gonna know what's instored for us. each scripture is speaking to us, not to peter, not to paul, not to john, it's speaking directly to us, to me to u. your bible is not just a bible, it's full of wonders and excitement papared from god for you to recieve.
when u read a verse u probably just read a verse like this for example 1 timothy 6:11-12 oh timothy you are God's man, flee from all this, and pursue righteousness, godliness, faith, love, endurance and gentleness. 12Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called when you made your good confession in the presence of many witnesses. but if you treat your bible like it's your own message from god you change timothy and put your own name there and then read it again, like 1 timothy 6:11-12 oh michelle or _____ you are God's woman/man, flee from all this, and pursue righteousness, godliness, faith, love, endurance and gentleness. 12Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called when you made your good confession in the presence of many witnesses. then this becomes a message directly from god to you.
the greatest place to start putting your own name would be john 3:16 for god so loved Michlle or ______ he gave his only begotten son that if michelle or _____ should believed in him, he/she should not perish but have everlasting life. how powerful is that? just to know god would have done it if i'd been the only person ever born. just like god would have done it for you if you'd been the only person in the whole wide world!

i encourage all of you to start putting you name in the bible and claim what god has given you.