WHAT COMES TO MY MIND

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH GOD IS SO AMAZING~!!! as I keep on experiencing him more each time he amazes me with sth new everytime. Since last year end of July I quit working for my family's business, no job = no income. Through God's grace and love I am still alive... I still have money for gas, and food to eat. It's also weird because I've applied so many places and interviews, nth just seems right, I guess you could say I was being picky in the beginning, but when I became desprate I even applied to be a dishwasher...=.=''' but then that didn't even work out hahaha~. Just about 2 weeks ago I found a lady needing an assitant at Salon Essence in Pasadena, she rents the station. I was very interested in this job for some reason eventho it wasn't a high pay job. I went for the interview and when I was waiting for her to show up and she pops up in front of me like "Michelle?" I was like "yea" and she treated me like I was her friend~ she was like my goodness look at your hair it's gorgeous~ and you look so cute!!! she started pampering me... that was like my first time getting pampered at an interview... I felt like I was just meeting an old friend that I've known for ages. She was just complimenting me one after another. Then she started asking me what do I look for in this job and what's my future goals I told her about it. I love her schedule Wed-Sat she is also a believer and the days she doens't work i could go in and do my own clients~ over all she told me she really liked me but she needs to pick between me or this other girl that her friend introduced, so imediately I felt like I have less chances than the other girl (devil speaking) so she told me to hear from her the fallowing week. I was SO anxious, like never b4. When I got her call she told me that her assitant is not leaving anymore because her assitant's husband's job didn't workout she they are not moving away anymore. I was like WHAT this is worse than her telling me if she was gonna pick the other girl. Before Heidi hang up she said we never know what God is really planning in his mysterious ways. When I heard that I felt like my faith was being tested but at the same time >< I was really dissapointed and my family was dissapointed too~!!! I told most ppl that I was abt to work and then I had to tell everyone that it didn't work out AGAIN~ It really destroyed me and made me depressed, and I was just asking God Y? Y? Y? If he closes this door then what does he have in mind??? Then the next day my mom told me to move out b4 Mar. 1st so I had even more pressure~ I didn't know where is the rent going to come from... how am I suppose to survive??? then I realized that I haven't been offering anything since I quit my job. So the past 2 sundays I decided to make offerings to God eventho it wasn't much but it really did made my heart ache... every peeny counts for me right now... but I just felt like I needed to give him the best and he'll do the same in return~ so then one night I was reading about psalms 27...
Psalm 27
Of David.
1 The LORD is my light and my salvation whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life of whom shall I be afraid?
2 When evil men advance against me to devour my flesh, when my enemies and my foes attack me, they will stumble and fall.
3 Though an army besiege me, my heart will not fear; though war break out against me, even then will I be confident.
4 One thing I ask of the LORD, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to seek him in his temple.
5 For in the day of trouble he will keep me safe in his dwelling; he will hide me in the shelter of his tabernacle and set me high upon a rock.
6 Then my head will be exalted above the enemies who surround me; at his tabernacle will I sacrifice with shouts of joy; I will sing and make music to the LORD.
7 Hear my voice when I call, O LORD; be merciful to me and answer me.
8 My heart says of you, "Seek his face!" Your face, LORD, I will seek.
9 Do not hide your face from me, do not turn your servant away in anger; you have been my helper. Do not reject me or forsake me, O God my Savior.
10 Though my father and mother forsake me, the LORD will receive me.
11 Teach me your way, O LORD; lead me in a straight path because of my oppressors.
12 Do not turn me over to the desire of my foes, for false witnesses rise up against me, breathing out violence.
13 I am still confident of this: I will see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living.
14 Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD.
It really just touched my heart the funny thing is that I read it because I remember seeing a necklace shaped like psalm 27 in a fashion magzine very random. I felt like it should mean something so I read it and it was right on, it really helped me to over come the situation I was in. So then after that I decided to move on and just continue to apply for jobs and see where is God going to lead me. I even had a strong conviction in my heart that if is what God had perpared for me no one can take it away, but if is sth that's not good for me God won't let me in either. So I just continued applying for jobs even the most ridiculious jobs too. But today morning around 10am I recieved a call it was from HEIDI!!!!!!!!!!! The lady from Salon Essence!!!!!!! I was sleeping but when I saw her name flashing on my cellphone my eyes popped and it was wide open!!! She kept my # and kept me in mind, she asked me if I found a job yet I sad no. Then she asked me if I would like to work for her because her assitant's boyfriend's job worked out and they are moving away~ I WAS LIKE OMG!!!!!!!!! And then she asked me if i was going to this anual hair show, I told her I couldnt afford it, and she even offered to take me there for free~!!!! AHAAAAAAHHHHHH double portion!!!! Tiffany (Li Ting) was sleeping next to me and she doesn't speak much english from the tone of my voice she even understood that I was hired. The job that I really wanted!!!! God is FAITHFUL~ he really knows what is he doing like seriously~! My job starts on Wed Jan 30th~ that means I will have enough $ b4 Mar. 1st to move out. exactly what I prayed for I needed a job b4 Feb so I could have my first paycheck~ sigh ahhhhhhhh I love u Jesus U R awsome~ just like the pastor said tonight at the cofrence "There's no testimonies if there's no test~" Through out these past 6 months God has taught me alot I've learned that, 1. tell him your problems before you tell anyone else. God needs our attention we can't just treat him like the magic latern we only rubb it when we need something. God would actually allow bad things happen to us because that can actually wake us up and bring us closer. 2.Don't have doubts in him he knows what is he doing, although it maynot make any sence to us. 3. PRAY PRAY PRAY (PRAY UNTIL SOMETHING HAPPENS) I'm not very good at it either but our God have mercy, he knows our limits he sees you trying and doing your best eventhough it's not enough and he is pleased with our willingness because he loves us. All we need to do is to just have faith in him weather if it takes 3months, half a year, 1 year, 10 years, God knows what is he doing. Cause he is GOD ^^

My grandma went to China for like 4 months, she jaust came back around Christmas. She's actually my stepdad's mom, but I call her Grandma anyways. We've been spending alot of time together. Last year I prayed for my family to be saved and really on fire for God. My grandma has been a believer for like 10 years... eventhough she's like 75 years old I just prayed that God would set a fire in her heart too. So recently she just told me she wanted to start comming to our church, I was a bit surprised, because she has her own church to go to, and she knows that our church is full of young ppl. She stills feels kind of wierd joining us because she's older. I told her age doesn't matter because we're all going there for God. Then she began sharing with me the reasons that she wanted to come with me. She said she wants to unite with me together we can influence my parents and my stepsister to believe in Christ. I was like WOW God is beginning to answer my prayer!!! And she even shared abt how it's gonna be hard and complicated because my parents are very against church. But she said we are suppose to be prosecuted and put through hardship so we can grow and have more faith in God. She even gave me an example like how Christians are suppose to be like Cactus. Cactus can survive in the desert without any water and any care, God created it he takes care of it eventho we don't see it with our human eyes. God created us too so he will take care of us too eventho we don't see it. I was like this is so crazy we were like having fellowship at my house. Then on sunday she prepared herself and her bible and actually came to church with me. I was a bit worried because the worship was in english and when she was introducing herself she actually said eventho she didn't understand the english she actually felt the Holy Spirit filled up her heart. I can't wait to see more things happening by the end of the year.